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today maths quiz is so challenging! abt 50++ double maths students turned up, then only less than 20 single maths students came.. these r 2 seperate categories... maybe i'll stand a high chance of winning.. but then i only did 17/25 q.. cos 1 mark will be deducted for wrong ans. at first i was quite confident of winning. until i saw samuel chua n oh chee yong.. tt oh chee yong is my utmost enemy.. tt !@#$%^&~`. last yr he got 100 too.. then now he got 98 for bt1.. can't stand him.. i wonder if he noes who i am. so tired now.. i'm staying over at my fren's house again.. cos her knee snapped while we were on the bus... so i had to go home n get a change of clothes, then i had to go home with her to make sure tt she arrives safely. somehow i think i'm not really who i appear to be.. sometimes i think tt i'm so complex tt i wonder if any1 can truely understand me. yawnz... i'm far too serious at times... but i can't help it.. hehe.. i hate immature pple.. =P
wow i'm finally online again.. it's been 2 weeks since my last entry. yihua said i shd update more often. well... i will be ultra busy for the next month. band is getting more stressing now. haiz our conductor is so nice to us.. he keeps encouraging us. i wonder how i can solve the tuning probs in less than 2 weeks. i hope rj dun become the top band this yr.. heh. yest was an interesting day.. has band prac till 6+ then went to a fren's house... she best loh.. gave me sprite mixed with vodka. unfortunately i drank too fast then was feeling a bit dizzy.. then my face was so red. haha.. 1st time like tt. then by the time i was feeling better, it was 11.30++ then we walked to tanah merah mrt train.... n the last train was gone! i feel kinda weird staying over at someone else's house, but no choice cos i dun wanna spend $15 to take a taxi home. i realised i got a talent for piecing puzzles... hahaha.. my fren took so long to complete a part of it then i finished up for her. the past 2 weeks were quite hectic... everyday 8+ or 9+ then reached home. i long time no do tutorials liao... feeling quite bad n worried for my studies. i'm afraid i wun be able to catch up after the band concert. i'm always too tired to do any hw after i get home. my bt results sux... especially for my GP... nvr thot tt i wld get such a grade. it's damn saddening to see such a grade.. haiz. then i screwed up my chem too. my chem s frens all did well for chem.. haiz nvr thot i wld be such failure. i'm juz not fated to take chem s. maths s is still ok .. for now. maths quiz is on wed.. n it clashes with band prac. i dunno what i shd do. but i really wanna go for maths quiz.. hopefully can win smthing. gonna go now.
ok i'm in school now... today is a slack day cos got 5 periods of break due to the council elections thingy. i'm so cold now cos i'm right under the air-con.. in the com lab! i hope my chen teacher wun give me the disappointed look when she gives us back the paper.. otherwise i'll be sad for the rest of the day. later there is band prac from 5.00-6.30pm. but sadly i'll be having chem s from 5.15-7pm. i wonder how the juniors r going to cope on their own. the concert repertoire is tough n i have yet seen "inchon". there is a horn solo in there.. hope i can play it well, otherwise i'll have to give it up. i wanna do smthing special for my last concert in band but i'm afraid of screwing up.
this was what i wanted to say yest: wow today's beach outing really sux. rain rain rain.. argh... waste time n waste $. really regretted going.. haiz. life is so meaningless.. sometime i wish it can juz end. life is all abt homework n band.. still got chem s, maths s n phy hw to do. when can i finish all of it?!?! SYF is on 7th May.. n the rehearsal is coming up soon. for once, i'll be missing chem n phy lect! i feel so pissed off now by everything...!@#$%^&*.. damn damn damn. y is everything so screwed up? hmm i'm quite nervous abt monday.. wonder if i'll do ok for econs.. hopefully i can get it back by tues. econs is my weakest subject cos i juz can't write essays. i can only score in mcq but this time i screwed up the mcq. sob sob. today: last night hotmail n this blogger screwed up. hmm was in a bad mood yest night n guess i gave my frens a fright. i feel quite guilty now but i think they shd have gotten used to it by now since i'm 4eva in a bad mood.... gonna do hw now. sigh..
i feel like a pig today... slept for soooo long. today was slightly sad.. cos xinhui said tt the chem test is ok while i think tt it is tough. am i really tt lousy in chem?!?! am i good enough to be a chem s student? somehow i dun think i have the special "talent" in me n chem s is killing my interest in chem. sometimes i juz hope tt mrs tham (my chem teacher) can treat me as a normal student instead of a chem s student. she seems so happy when i told her tt i'll continue to try chem s. i can't bear to let her down nor will i allow chem s to spoil my 4As dream. so guess i'll have to work ultra hard for the next few months to get 4As, 1D n 1M. hopefully i can have B4 for GP. am i aiming too high? somehow i feel tt i have the potential to do well but band is taking up too much of my time. maybe i cld have done better if i'm not in band. but i'll not regret joining band cos tt's where i met my gd frens.. my jiemeis =)
this was what i wanted to write yesterday....hmm today is the end of blk test.. haiz chem is so tough. sob sob. i went to watch "dreamcatcher" with seng, yihua, sheryl, corinne n xiaoying. it was a fun day thanx to them. this is my first entry.. i'm not sure what i shd write. looking forward to the next band prac =) well today is a brand new day n i'm stoning at home now cos i'm not taking fmaths or bio! sometimes i wonder if i made the right decision by taking econs instead of fmaths.. most of the time i end up regretting my decision when others asked me y i din take fmaths. guess i was too afraid of failure n so i din attempt fmaths. but guess it was all worthwhile since i'm doing ok now... my interest for maths will nvr fade.... haiz this yr i gonna make so many decisions.. abt the courses in uni, which uni to go, etc.. i hate my j2 life.. actually i dun even have a life... haha...
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